Change is such a bitch. As my second year at college comes to a close, I have yet another dorm room I oddly don't want to leave. This year turned out a hell of a lot different than I had expected. I lost three best friends, made out with people I would never had expected, found a large group of people that enjoy hanging out with me on the weekends. I hate change, and I will be the first to admit it, and I am still not sure where I sit at for the change that occurred this year, but I hope it is for the best.
This past week has been spent packing and reminiscing every good memory from the year. Tonight my roommates and I played MASH, as we lay in the living room listening to 2000's R&B. I think this is a memory I'll hold close. Tomorrow we will get our Cinco de Drinko on and have a great time getting plastered on our last night all together for the semester.
Change is inevitable, but it has shown me a little light. I can't wait to see what the future has to hold, even if I am a little afraid of this summer. I think I will make it.
Wednesday, May 4, 2016
Tuesday, May 3, 2016
May 3rd 1:54 AM
Last of my finals tomorrow, excited relax throughout the rest of the week before I head to Kansas for Michael and Jordie's wedding. I've had an interesting year and definitely evolved as a person. I am grateful for the many different people I have had the pleasure of meeting this year and hope to make those bonds stronger next year. I have learned so much from these people and am so blessed to know everyone that I do.
Looking back on my year I remember how cautious I was last semester, always worried about my future and the relationships that were dwindling around me, but I learned what I need to do is relax and keep going on this path that I have chosen to take. The people that don't stick around weren't meant to, as hard as that is for me to accept. People change people, and sometimes when they've changed all they can they have to leave. Nothing is really permanent and every day is different. I have so much more opportunity around me than I think.
I made out with multiple boys this year, and I introduced myself to even more. Last year I would never have done that, and I realize how lame that sounds for a 20 year old, but I don't really mind. I hope next year I grow and learn more respect for myself to go along with this new found confidence. I also hope to learn ambition and determination, qualities that seem to only show up when there is alcohol involved ha.
I realize that some of these friendships won't last, and maybe I won't reach all of my goals for a long time, but I will get there. I will grow. I will change and so will those around me. I can't wait to see what the future brings. I the next 12 months are great ones and as adventurous as these last 12 have been.
I believe, and I hope.
I am hopeful.
Hopelessly Happy.
Looking back on my year I remember how cautious I was last semester, always worried about my future and the relationships that were dwindling around me, but I learned what I need to do is relax and keep going on this path that I have chosen to take. The people that don't stick around weren't meant to, as hard as that is for me to accept. People change people, and sometimes when they've changed all they can they have to leave. Nothing is really permanent and every day is different. I have so much more opportunity around me than I think.
I made out with multiple boys this year, and I introduced myself to even more. Last year I would never have done that, and I realize how lame that sounds for a 20 year old, but I don't really mind. I hope next year I grow and learn more respect for myself to go along with this new found confidence. I also hope to learn ambition and determination, qualities that seem to only show up when there is alcohol involved ha.
I realize that some of these friendships won't last, and maybe I won't reach all of my goals for a long time, but I will get there. I will grow. I will change and so will those around me. I can't wait to see what the future brings. I the next 12 months are great ones and as adventurous as these last 12 have been.
I believe, and I hope.
I am hopeful.
Hopelessly Happy.
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